Hit the road, Mac

I’ve been recovering from my Californian adventure – the jet lag, the lethargy of 9-to-5ing and the abrupt plunge into the cold bath of mundane reality. Some were not so lucky. I sat with my iBook as it slipped into a coma from which it was not to recover. All attempts at resuscitation failed – the hard drive was so tangled up it could not recognise itself. The only thing left is to recover what data I can by wizardly means, zero out the disk and reinstall the operating system. But I have no heart left for this, and demur to again grow an attachment to a machine, an inanimate object, a totem, an icon, a symbol, an idea. So I dusted off my old Thinkpad, which is as attractive as a blocked toilet, inconveniently bulky, with a sticky backspace key, and I’m using it as ruthlessly as the back of an envelope.

Computers used to occupy me, for the usual reasons – a universe totally under the control of reason and science, and so on – but one of my Fresno lessons (there’s the motif – raise your hat!) is that life, the thing that happens under your nose and flickers in your eyes, disrupting your concentration on the LCD or CRT, is more interesting. Confusing, inconsistent, infuriating and frustrating, and also fulfilling, joyful, shot with clarity. I’ve read that “may you have an interesting life” is a Chinese curse. What I forgot is that the idea of yin/yang, the philosophy of things generating their opposites, also came from those parts. I leave an investigation of eastern cosmology as an exercise for the reader.

Bungee jumping

It’s a slightly warmer than crisp Saturday morning, and I’m back home in the Smoke. Actually got back home on Wednesday afternoon but felt too laggy to do anything other than moan pitifully while trying not to do too much damage at work the next couple of days. The rest of the crew of S.S Dunroamin are out doing Tai Chi and Kung Fu but I’ve decided the cats need company, and anyway the rigours of modern travel mandate a respectable amount of recuperation time.

One of the many by-products of meeting up in Fresno (advance warning – there is going to be a lot of this “great time in Fresno” stuff, and in fact this blog is one of those by-products), was realising that all the good things in life were right there all the time, at every instant, only needing the onlooker to see. I seemed to be in two times simultaneously, that of 30-40 years ago and that of now, as if I had a temporal elastic band wrapped around my waist, slamming me back and forth between the two. When that sort of thing is rattling your brain around, it tends to attract your attention.

To my addled mind it seems that everyone knows, the way they know that it’s night on the other side of the Earth, that they are different from the way they used to be. When, however, you are privileged with an unusual viewpoint, for example meeting up with a friend who you haven’t seen in 30 years, before life happened, before the heart-ripping breakups, before the vertigo of finding out people rely on you now and not the other way round, before realising that young people are rebelling against you, with no intervening accomodations and without the complacency of familiarity, well it seems as if you walked out the door one morning and found yourself in the future, going “Hey, they’ve got portable radios now, and everyone’s got a TV!”. Fertile ground for science fiction writers. And it helps you to see everything with a sense of wonder. Then. Now. Did I do that? And you thought this? Oh my god, I see.

Kind of like that. So, good holiday. More to come.

Cats 1

First of all, let me stress that I do not intend to infringe Suicide Lounge’s copyright on the Cat Song. This post is about the cats left at home.

Prof and I were talking on Skype in the usual manner, exchanging inconsequences, alternately responding to and ignoring each other as we surfed, sent links back and forth, stared into space and so on.

Something made her think about the cats – we have two, both black, brother and sister. We got them at the cat shelter, expecting to spend a lot of time judiciously considering temperament, medical histories and past owners. What happened was that I saw these two looking at us and I said “Can I have these ones, please?!” Everyone else was carried away by the depth and force of my infatuation and we took them home, after the necessary formalities.

Apparently, they have been in a mischievous mood. I think they enjoy the Prof’s company better than mine, and feel that they can express themselves more freely around her. They didn’t seem quite as fun when the Prof was away, though perhaps they spent the time reflecting on questions of meaning and ultimate purpose.

Today, for instance, the cats were employed alternately in staring at Prof with kittenish, wide eyed faces, thinking “What will happen if I jump on my human?”, and jumping on her. Cat lovers will know the face I am talking about, others will not care, so I feel relieved of the burden of describing it accurately, as everyone’s needs are catered for.

In short, I miss my cats. They are friendly little cats.

Some History

So, the story is, nearly 40 years ago I moved up to secondary school, which is Year 7 for UK people, Junior High for in the US. Seeing an opportunity for amusement, Kien scuttled up to me and, for purposes of exposition and because I can’t remember his actual words, said “Hello”.

He had a friend named Marcel. Soon we began to hang out together. Possible reasons for this outcome include: a) we all recognized that we needed reinforcements, being weird kids; b) they were the first people I met in this new school and they let me tag along; c) utter, blind chance.

Adventures ensued, some growing up, a few backward steps, laughs, tears and so on. There were musical jams, camping trips, eating contests, and impromptu Jesus Christ Superstar productions. We explored literature and art, discussed philosophy with each other in the usual schoolboy manner.

School ended and we started to pursue the rest of our lives. The story becomes more fragmented here, because of course our lives were different. New places, new people.

So again, roughly 30 years after we were last in the same place together, here we are in the same place together. I’m resting up, writing this little post, preparing for a tightly scheduled night at the Rogue Festival.

And that’s the story, one way of telling it. It could have happened to anybody.

Hello California!

Well, as Marcel said, (M’s blog), here I am in the gorgeous metropolis of Fresno, central California. I left my entire record collection with him when I left Malaysia and said I’d be back for them.

30 years later, I’m sitting in his shed, typing into my new blog, with Kien giving helpful editorial suggestions. Marcel thinks the records are in Malaysia still, so my fevered dreams of re-experiencing Liberace’s Greatest Hits are dashed on the rocky shores of cruel circumstance.

Still, you’ve got to grow up, and that’s something I’ve got plans for. More reasoned and measured comments to follow in my next post.